34F

Flax and Chia Seed +raw vegan goodies..
LIKE A BOSS

When you get diagnosed with IDC everyone is a professional. Like.....seriously. That's one of the reasons I've kept things so DL, because people say the stupidest of shit. I just have to get down to the heart of the matter because I'm like busting at the seems...like literally my port incision looks like it's going to bust open lol. Not all chemo is created equal. There are many a different treatment, like really there isn't just ONE chemo drug, there are multiple, with multiple side effects. When you ask me the day after I get chemo whether or not I'm going to be at work because your neighbors mamas sisters cousins friend had chemo and worked the whole time you sound like a straight up DICK. You know what, you're right! I should be at work right now....my 'ol fatigued nauseous ass is just faking. Ugh I already feel like I told one too many people you know? Now I have to hear this stupid ass shit on the regular!

Why am I not having surgery first? That's what that lady from TV did. Well, because they kind of sort of want to kill everything first before they take off both of my tits. It's not surgery for a nose job. It's not an in an out, simple procedure. BILATERAL MASTECTOMY BITCHES. If you haven't gotten one, please STFU just STFU because you sound sooooooooooooooooooo stupid and insensitive. I'm 30 and losing 34F's. 6 rounds of psycho killer chemo, plus removal of both my breasts, plus expanding of my new breasts, plus new breasts. That's a whole lot of shit right there...and it's actually the norm for a 30 year old with IDC.

 Last night was the first night in a week and a half I didn't vomit/shit/feel nausea all night long. I know you were happy to get all that sleep Javi! My gift to you boo! <3 ya. This morning was only the second morning that I haven't woken up feeling like shit. Thanks be to GOD! Today I thought I was going to have the bull by it's ass! Woke up: LIKE A BOSS, ordered pies for Thanksgiving from that posh overpriced pie shop in the Bishop Arts District: LIKE A SNOBBY BOSS, felt good: LIKE A BOSS, ate grass and berries: LIKE A VEGAN BOSS, went to moms house to help with paella shopping: LIKE A BOSS.....

Thanks to the men in my life for helping me out!
Look at my wine on the counter...sigh. WINE!

wait....noon hits...ugh no longer a boss. Less than boss, total un boss. I felt bad, I was headed up to the job to visit with some of my friends, then get my lashes did (sigh, may be my LAST lash fill till Feb...depending on whether the big T fucks with my lashes). I walked into Holly's and she was like giiirrrrllllllll you ok?! She took care of me though and I walked out feeling much better than when I walked in. I think it was the chair!

Truth be told....I didn't take ALL my nausea meds this morning...because they take the little energy I have and don't make me feel very good at all. I thought I'd be ok without them...but I wasn't. I take about 10 pills a day to "function normally" but I'm not really functioning lol. I hate taking pills and really wanted to get some things done today. If you haven't been there, it's difficult to understand. The meds make you feel "better," but it comes at a cost. I can take them and not have it coming out of both ends, but as a result I'm exhausted and can't do much....or I can go without and feel bad every 30 minutes with 5-10 minute spurts of feeling good...yet still be exhausted! It is what it is. As soon as I got home I took the rest of my meds and promptly knocked out to the sounds of the Texas 34 degree rain as my 100 plus pound Akita farted his heart out. Ugh, he's so cute, but my big man can cause quite a stink!