OH LAWWWWWWWD!

Cold Cap=keep the hair, just not down
 there!

Your immune system is weak they said. Avoid areas that have poor air circulation/that are heavily crowded they said. I didn't LISTEN! Friday night I was at Blue Martini with Javier and Akon, mostly because I wanted to prove to Javi that I COULD still hang. Who would have known that Blue Martini was germ filled and would become filled with people? How was I to know that two days later I was going to wake up with the MUTHA of all fevers, cough, sore throat and feeling like two sacks *ahem, make that three* of horse shit! Now I know why I haven't seen anyone going through chemo out at the bar! I haven't felt this bad since right after chemo and I'm about to feel that shitty again since I have another infusion on Wednesday. Oh well, that martini tasted good!

I meant martinis!!

Yes as in plural! Worst cancer patient EVA!

So Friday and Saturday I was pretty insistent on getting the house ready for Christmas. I went out shopping on Friday for decorations, and I bought what I thought was a lot of decor...then I put it up in the house and I got really depressed that I spent all that money for what was basically NOTHIN! Mom offered up some of her decor, hell yeah, now we are ready for the holidays. For some reason Christmas trees are naked as hell and expensive as hell. Really? 200 dollars for that naked ass tree? Bitches be cray! We may wait until after Christmas to be getting a tree! Speaking of after Christmas it seems like this Boxing Day (google that for all you non Canadian Brits out there) I'll be getting my chemo on...what WHAT! So gangsta! NOT.

It's funny, because I was going to work today. Seriously. I got signed off and errythang. Then I get slammed with the Blue Martini sickness and I'm at home. Poor hubby can't catch a break. Fevers suck! I was burning up like a mutha!

Ugh, so have I talked about my runny nose on here? I don't think so. So my nose hair fell out...yes...my nose hair fell out. When your nose hairs fall out you have a constant runny nose. I literally only have like three left in my right, lol it's kinda sorta funny. Speaking of hair, I officially have like less than five hairs on my kitty, and I'm literally clinging to that shit as if it was hair on my head!

So I was terrified to wash my hair today...TERRIFIED! When you watch yourself go bald down there you think, oh shit is this what it's like? It drops out in clumps and if you apply any tension, that's it, it's out. I remember my oncologist telling me that if by Friday (last Friday) I still had my hair that means the cold cap worked. Well I didn't shed any more than usual so after one infusion I've still got my hair. I had to smile when I came out of the bathroom with my wet hair, Javi looked so surprised. More relieved is probably the word I'm searching for.

So I need to eat super clean tomorrow because whatever I eat tomorrow and Wednesday I'll be barfing and shitting up around 2am Friday and I would prefer not to burn as bad this time around! I'm putting my Desitin on now and slicking down the lips! I need to clean my toilet so when I'm puking in it I don't get grossed out! There's also a recipe for the burn that's suppose to help, I need to get on that as well. Burn baby burn!

Anyways...